hamsterfly

Kenapa ya waktu itu cepet banget? Rasanya baru kemaren Manchester City kalah 8-0 dari middlesbrough, eh sekarang udah main di UCL aja. Rasanya baru kemaren SBY dilantik, eh sekarang udah jokowi. Baru kemaren manajer Chelsea Villas Boas, sekarang udah Mourinho lagi. Rasanya baru kemaren ulang tahun ke 13, eh sekarang udah 18 tahun aja. Rasanya kemaren baru MOS smp, lah ini udah lulus SMA. Memang kecepatan waktu menjadi sebuah misteri hingga saat ini.

Salah satu hal termanis di dunia adalah saat kita merindukan seseorang dan mereka melakukan hal yg sama. Sangat lucu sekali bagaimana kalian saling membenci tapi di dalam hati masih saling menyayangi. Kenangan memang aneh. Saat kamu merasa begitu membencinya dan tiba-tiba kenangan indahmu bersamanya muncul. Kebencian itu berkurang, bahkan hilang. Kamu mungkin membencinya, tapi tidak bisa selamanya. Orang-orang yg memberi kenangan indah dalam hidup kita, akan selalu kita sayang. Meskipun kita tdk pernah menyapanya lagi. Atau menyebut namanya di dalam doa kita lagi. Tapi jauh dilubuk hati, namanya selalu terngiang.

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Aku sangat sedih. Ini momen lain dimana aku akan kehilangan seseorang yg sangat dekat dengan ku. Seseorang yg bukan hanya keluarga, tapi juga teman. Seseorang yg menyebalkan, tapi sangat peduli padaku. Aku menyesal karena pada hari-hari terakhirnya jarak kami semakin jauh. Bahkan aku sempat membencinya. Tapi, aku beruntung bisa melihatnya tadi malam. Seketika rasa sayangku padanya muncul lagi. Aku selalu dekat dengannya sejak kecil. Kehilangannya akan jadi sesuatu yg menyedihkan bagiku. Dia banyak berjasa untuk aku yg sebelumnya tidak aku sadari. Aneh rasanya melihat dia terbaring lemas. Padahal dulu kami selalu bergurau dan suka menghabiskan waktu bersama. Bahkan kami pernah pergi ke luar kota berdua demi menonton film yg kami tunggu. Dia selalu ceria dulunya. Sekarang wajahnya suram. Sungguh sakit hatiku melihatnya. Aku harap apapun yg terjadi adalah yg terbaik untuknha. Aku harap saat waktunya tiba aku diberi kekuatan oleh Tuhan untuk mengikhlaskannya. Dan semoga dia tenang di sana ...

I love you so much. But...

Going to Eminem's tour.

Saying "I Love You" to the person I really love.

Going to a place full of flowers.

One of my craziest dream is to go to space. :)

And I'd give up forever to touch you Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't wanna go home right now

Dan di sinilah aku. Sendiri lagi malam ini. Hanya ditemani beberapa lagu kesukaanmu. Yang kuharap bisa sedikit mengurangi rasa rinduku padamu.

this is a very good song. from the movie Dear John with Amanda Seyfried singing. Check this out:

and they are gone and i'll be alone and empty

Ahh sebal. sebal. Kenapa perasaanku sedih sekali. Aku harus kuat. Ini bukan akhir dari segalanya. Aku yakin aku bisa. Aku tidak seburuk yang aku kira. Aku yakin itu. Aku percaya Allah punya rencana yang lebih baik. Aku tahu Allah tau yang terbaik buat aku. Melebihi apa yang aku yakinkan. Mungkin perjuanganku memang belum cukup untuk membayar hal yang ku inginkan. Aku harus berusaha lebih keras lagi. 100x lebih keras daripada sebelumnya. Aku yakin Allah Maha Adil. Semoga Allah membukakan hati mereka2 yang sangat tidak 'jujur' dan menggugurkan mimpi-mimpi orang sepertiku. Semoga aku dapat yang lebih baik. Dengan adanya cobaan ini, semoga aku menjadi orang yang lebih kuat dan tidak putus asa lagi. Aku janji, kalau tadi malam adalah air mata terakhir yang keluar dari mataku. Setelah ini, aku cukupkan. Aku tidak mau terpuruk terlalu dalam. Aku masih punya Allah. Dan aku masih punya banyak kesempatan. Hal yang harus kulakukan sekarang adalah meyakinkan kalau diriku pantas. Dan dirik...

Sebenernya aku sedih. Tapi aku gak bisa. Terus ekspresiku harus kayak apa dong? Udah gitu aja.

I won't give up! Never! I don't care about what people say. I know, what I do. I know, this is not wrong. I'm not afraid. I'll show them that I can do it. I want people see me that I still can get up. I will never ever giving up. I promise, I'll get what I want. I'll reach this. I promise. I don't care how many times people bring me down. I keep trying and climbing. I wanna reach the top. I wanna raise my flag on top. Everytime I fall, I promise I'll get up. I believe I can do it. I know I'm so much stronger than what everyone thinks. I will be great. And I promise I will make you SMILE. I promise.

W. S. Rendra, pencipta ribuan puisi indah. Hampir semua puisinya aku suka. Tapi ada satu yang paling bagus menurutku. Judulnya Episode. 

AKU HANCUR......... KU TERLUKA........... NAMUN ENGKAULAH NAFASKU........ KAU CINTAKU........... MESKI AKU.......... BUKAN DI BENAKMU LAGI......... DAN KU BERUNTUNG............ SEMPAT MEMILIKIMU........... OH..... OH....... OH.........

This girl is so amazing. She made me falling in love with her just for 3 minutes. Really! I listen to her for the first time on youtube. It was her music video with a song called "Video Games". And I really enjoy her music. Her music is different. She bring the old songs back. She makes music like 60's. And I like it. You should listen to her.  Try one of these songs, I guarantee you won't stop listen to her anymore :) Video Games West Coast Ride Young and Beautiful Summertime Sadness Dark Paradise Body Electric She really brings good music ;)

I really love this song. I heard this song from a movie 'LOL' in 2012. After that, I can't stop listen to this song. The lyrics are so sweet. And the music is so beautiful.

why do i always be the one who left behind? the one who can't move on. and the one who can't let go. why do i am so loyal to things? why do i love things too much and care too much?

Cause soon you can only watch and wonder Where the girl you knew has gone And then you will realize that Everything you did to me was wrong :)

I listen to hip hop more and more nowday. I think it's kind of music I can relate beside rock and alternative ofcourse. Sometimes I listen to country too. But only some singer. Hip hop is really cool, I think. But many of their lyrics are stupid. Many singer rap about bitches, drugs, or whatever makes them look cheap. But Eminem is different. I didn't really listen to Hip Hop before I found eminem. Lol The first time I listen to him was 'Not Afraid'. For the first time I wasn't care much. But the next day it was on chart on one of my favorite music chanel. And again and again. So, I get used to it. And I begin pick 'eminem' on my search box in youtube. He was really cool. He's different. And I love him. So I listen to him more. He made many good songs. With good lyrics. And in his song called Rap God. He rap really fast. And it was so cool :3 So, here is some of his best songs (in my opinion) : 1. Not Afraid 2. Mockingbird 3. Rap God 4. Lose You...

always always always do the best. so, they can see you shine. shine. shine.

one thing i hate about my self is that i always leave people behind me. i made them happy, and i left them. it's like im going into someone's life, but i don't give my responsibility to take care of them. i care too much about something i shouldn't. and make people who love and care to me........ hate me. i can't pretend. i can make them happy, but it will hurt me. im too selfish. i want to be happy. just me. but i hurt people. but then someone hurt me. im mad. i should stop hurt people, if i don't wanna be hurt. but i don't want to make them happy, im afraid if i go too much. and they ask me too much too. but i can't give. so. I don't want to hurt people. I don't want to make them happy. s o , i t h i n k , t h e b e s t t h i n g i c a n d o ......................is disappear  without telling them.  

'Now Is Good' is really beautiful. i love it very much. i learn that sometimes, it is not always for the long time. we still can do it, even for just 1 minute. one day, i'll feel something like that. being very happy with someone. just need to wait for the right time, with the right person. the right moment.

Being short is really annoying, but it's fun too. Sometimes it's awkward to take picture with you taller friends.. And it's really hard when u're cooking. Well, you need to cook and climbing at the same time. lol another problem in the car....... in the store.......... . but, when i can't find anybody, i will do this....... and sometimes, we feel ugly. we hate our body.  in the crowded place, we feel like in the middle of nowhere. some people mock us :( BUT....................... We still have something!! At least it's not hard to find a taller guy :D And it looks cute when we hang out with our tall guy. Go check Cher Lloyd, Avril Lavigne! aren't they look cute?? :D and, at least we can give you cute hugs. lol and, we'll never ever had this awkward moment... ok, that's all... the story of short girl, and don't forget:

One of many great songs by a beautiful Ingrid Michaelson :) I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok I just want to be ok today I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok I just want to be ok today I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today I just want to feel something today I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today I just want to feel something today Open me up and you will see I'm a gallery of broken hearts I'm beyond repair, let me be And give me back my broken parts I just want to know today, know today, know today I just want to know something today I just want to know today, know today, know today Know that maybe I will be ok Open me up and you will see I'm a gallery of broken hearts I'm beyond repair, let me be And give me back my broken parts Just give me back my pieces Just give them back to me please Just give me back my pieces And let me hold my broken parts I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok I just want to be ok today I just want...

Ain't No Mountain High Enough - Marvin Gaye & Tammi Terrell I Live My Life For You - Firehouse It Must Have Been Love - Roxette Don't You (Forget About Me) - Simple Minds Good Bye - Air Supply The Sign - Ace of Base Chiquitita - ABBA Time To Say Goodbye - Sarah Brightman & Andrea Bocelli Here With Me - Dido You're Still The One - Shania Twain What Can I Do - The Corrs Runaway - The Corrs So Young - The Corrs Grow Old With You - Adam Sandler The Spirit Carries On - Dream Theater Gloomy Sunday - Sarah Brightman Creep - Radiohead Lost in Your Eyes - Debbie Gibson Jolene - Dolly Parton Listen To Your Heart - Roxette Leaving on A Jet Plane - Chantal Kreviazuk I Knew I Loved You - Savage Garden Unintended - Muse

Film romance itu.... sesuatu! Bagus sih. Tapi sbg orang jomblo (gak ngenes) kadang liatnya ngiler juga :'D Hahaaaa. Berikut film2 romance terbaik menurut saya :) 1. A Walk To Remember Menurutku ini film romance paling bagus sepanjang masa. Film ini diangkat dari novel berjudul sama karya Nicholas Sparks. Kalo udah ngomong novelnya Nicholas Sparks, tingkan ke-romance-an nya gak diragukan lagi deh. Ini film bercerita tentang bad boy  yang hidupnya berubah 180 derajat setelah ketemu sama seorang good girl.  Sampai-sampai dia rela meninggalkan pergailan lamanya hanya untuk si ceweknya. So sweet :D Tapi semua berubah ketika si cewek mengungkapkan suatu hal pada diri cewek tersebut. Apakah itu........??? You really should watch this one!! Oh ya, FYI, si Justin Bieber pun pernah menyatakan kalau ini adalah salah satu film favorit dia lho :) 2. Dear John Lagi-lagi Nicholas Sparks! Entah kenapa film romance yang saya suka kebanyakan diangkat dari novel-novel dia. Bagu...

I found this poem on tumblr. And I would like to share this with you, it's such a beautiful poem based on a real story. It's so sad.

It's one of a good song by James Blunt . I heard this for the first time in the movie called P.S. I Love You. Really good movie. You should watch.. And the lyrics is so deep. And in some parts, I found out that they are really me :)) So here is the lyrics..........

What Can I Do To Make You Love Me? What Can   I Do To Make You Care? What Can I Say To Make You Feel This? What Can I Do To Get You There?