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Ahh sebal. sebal. Kenapa perasaanku sedih sekali. Aku harus kuat.
Ini bukan akhir dari segalanya. Aku yakin aku bisa. Aku tidak seburuk yang aku kira. Aku yakin itu. Aku percaya Allah punya rencana yang lebih baik. Aku tahu Allah tau yang terbaik buat aku. Melebihi apa yang aku yakinkan. Mungkin perjuanganku memang belum cukup untuk membayar hal yang ku inginkan. Aku harus berusaha lebih keras lagi. 100x lebih keras daripada sebelumnya. Aku yakin Allah Maha Adil. Semoga Allah membukakan hati mereka2 yang sangat tidak 'jujur' dan menggugurkan mimpi-mimpi orang sepertiku. Semoga aku dapat yang lebih baik. Dengan adanya cobaan ini, semoga aku menjadi orang yang lebih kuat dan tidak putus asa lagi. Aku janji, kalau tadi malam adalah air mata terakhir yang keluar dari mataku. Setelah ini, aku cukupkan. Aku tidak mau terpuruk terlalu dalam. Aku masih punya Allah. Dan aku masih punya banyak kesempatan. Hal yang harus kulakukan sekarang adalah meyakinkan kalau diriku pantas. Dan diriku BISA.Aku harus bisa membuat orang-orang yang kusayangi bangga memilikiku disekitar mereka. Aku ingin orang-orang tau kalau aku juga bisa.
Sudah. Aku janji akan berusaha lebih keras lagi. Dan hasilnya, aku serakhkan pada Allah.Semoga besok jadi yang terakhir. Aamiin YRA.

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