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12/05/2014 --- p side.

one thing i hate about my self is that i always leave people behind me.
i made them happy, and i left them.
it's like im going into someone's life, but i don't give my responsibility to take care of them.
i care too much about something i shouldn't.
and make people who love and care to me........ hate me.
i can't pretend.
i can make them happy, but it will hurt me.
im too selfish.
i want to be happy. just me. but i hurt people. but then someone hurt me. im mad.
i should stop hurt people, if i don't wanna be hurt.
but i don't want to make them happy, im afraid if i go too much.
and they ask me too much too.
but i can't give.
so.
I don't want to hurt people.
I don't want to make them happy.
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