hamsterfly

 Hello its me. Ive been writing on this blog since I was maybe 12? I dont even remember. Right now its 10:13 pm, Dec 17th 2024. Guess what? I got married last month. Nov 17. It's pretty weird. I got married to the person I wrote about here too. Maybe if you read my past posts....you will find about him. It's really weird because I get to do things with a boy. I tell him things, I talk to him, he cooks for me, I clean for him. Like... tbh... I thought I would get married by the age of 35. That's why It is a very shocking condition. Im 28 years old now. no. Im not saying Im old, but Im just really mature now. OMG. Wait, this is just an intrusive thoughts, but can you imagine me as a MOM? a MOTHER? but wait, let's put it aside. I still have no plan to be a mother in the near time. I still want my free life. I mean, Its not that I dont want to be a mother, but I need more time to learn. Anyway, let's go back to being a wife: he is my best friend. he was and he is, and h...

The day I got engaged to my best friend! I decided to give it a chance, and I dont regret it at all. This, by far, is the best decision I've ever made. Can't wait to spend my future with him. Now, I have someone I can trust my life with. Its exciting!!!

some things didn't work out, and it's for the best. i let go all the things i can't control and focusing on the things i can control. guess where i am now? in a big city. the place i thought i would never spend some times (for like about 3 months or less). i don't like it here, but i enjoy visiting new places on my day off. i think about my future and i am exciting again. i lost interest in life last year, i literally felt like i was done living. but i was wrong!! i was not done living, i was just with the wrong people. i found sparks again in life. and guess what? 2 days ago i just spent my time with the person i had crush on when i was... idk maybe 13? so funny and it was so unpredictable. hahaha. best days of my life. but sometimes i feel lonely here, i miss my cats and my bedroom. also the routine here is kinda boring. lifeless. i miss being free~ tbh. but i will get use to it. i always find a way to enjoy things (always). im writing this at work to look busy lol. o...