the last...

why do i always be the one who left behind?
the one who can't move on.
and the one who can't let go.
why do i am so loyal to things?
why do i love things too much and care too much?





it's always hard to start something new.
because when i'm addicted to something, it could last forever.
when i adore something, i adore too much.

it's like you.
i always like you.
even since we don't know each other.
i always stalk your facebook or twitter.
i awlays find out who are you dating with
what are you doing, and something like that.

i never realize that i was so crazy about you.
we are different.
you have amazing life.
you have friends. many friends
fame.
while me?
i just have 'best friend' and stories.

it's so happy to like you.
even though i can't be with you.
even though i never text you.
or being close woth you.

no

i never wanna be with you, or anyone else.
it's just im happy to see you.
to see your face.
it makes me smile like an idiot. lol.

and now, we will have different life.
im not going to see you everyday, like we used to be.
maybe we'll livivng in different place.

im so glad to meet you.
at least, you always make me laugh everytime i talk to you
*which is not very often*
and when you laugh at my jokes, i feel apreciated.

i actually really wanna say my feeling to you.
but, it's not wise.
you know, you have so many girls who adore you out there.
and i am nothing.
im just a book with silly songs.
i will never be an ellegant like those girl you hang out with.
i will never be cute.
i will never be pretty.
i always do silly things.
i laugh too hard.
and talk with no manners.

so, i realize that we maybe never ever be together.
that's why i can't talk to you about this.

since we won't meet again. i decided to move on.
right now : im serious.
i will try my best.
goodbye my love.
i hope you're happy.

and tonight is the last song.

-zy-