Skip to main content

12/05/2014 --- p side.

one thing i hate about my self is that i always leave people behind me.
i made them happy, and i left them.
it's like im going into someone's life, but i don't give my responsibility to take care of them.
i care too much about something i shouldn't.
and make people who love and care to me........ hate me.
i can't pretend.
i can make them happy, but it will hurt me.
im too selfish.
i want to be happy. just me. but i hurt people. but then someone hurt me. im mad.
i should stop hurt people, if i don't wanna be hurt.
but i don't want to make them happy, im afraid if i go too much.
and they ask me too much too.
but i can't give.
so.
I don't want to hurt people.
I don't want to make them happy.
s
o
,
i
t
h
i
n
k
,
t
h
e
b
e
s
t
t
h
i
n
g
i
c
a
n
d
o
......................is
disappear without telling them. 

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

2022 update

4 years passed since the last time I wrote in my blog. Well, what happened in 4 years? A lot of things. I managed to finish my medical school which makes me a doctor now, even though I dont have proper job but Al hamdulillah I get enough salary to feed me and my cat. Oh yeah I have a cat that I adopted this march, she is Molly and I lover her very much. I finally moved on from the people who don't deserve me, and that was very relieved. I was thinking that I might never loved anyone again, but I was wrong. I met someone who I wanna spend the rest of my life with. I met him just in a blink of an eye, and that's it, I fall for him. I finally feel alive again. I've never felt this way to someone before. No, this is definitely not my first love, but this is definitely the biggest love I ever had to someone, and hopefully the last love in my life. And I am so grateful for this.  Anyway I am an adult now. I managed to take care of myself, I pay my own bills, buy my own food. And
Post a Comment
Read more

Short Girl Story

Being short is really annoying, but it's fun too. Sometimes it's awkward to take picture with you taller friends.. And it's really hard when u're cooking. Well, you need to cook and climbing at the same time. lol another problem in the car....... in the store.......... . but, when i can't find anybody, i will do this....... and sometimes, we feel ugly. we hate our body.  in the crowded place, we feel like in the middle of nowhere. some people mock us :( BUT....................... We still have something!! At least it's not hard to find a taller guy :D And it looks cute when we hang out with our tall guy. Go check Cher Lloyd, Avril Lavigne! aren't they look cute?? :D and, at least we can give you cute hugs. lol and, we'll never ever had this awkward moment... ok, that's all... the story of short girl, and don't forget:
Post a Comment
Read more

But You Didn't (A Very Great Poem)

I found this poem on tumblr. And I would like to share this with you, it's such a beautiful poem based on a real story. It's so sad.
Post a Comment
Read more