hamsterfly

Cause soon you can only watch and wonder Where the girl you knew has gone And then you will realize that Everything you did to me was wrong :)

I listen to hip hop more and more nowday. I think it's kind of music I can relate beside rock and alternative ofcourse. Sometimes I listen to country too. But only some singer. Hip hop is really cool, I think. But many of their lyrics are stupid. Many singer rap about bitches, drugs, or whatever makes them look cheap. But Eminem is different. I didn't really listen to Hip Hop before I found eminem. Lol The first time I listen to him was 'Not Afraid'. For the first time I wasn't care much. But the next day it was on chart on one of my favorite music chanel. And again and again. So, I get used to it. And I begin pick 'eminem' on my search box in youtube. He was really cool. He's different. And I love him. So I listen to him more. He made many good songs. With good lyrics. And in his song called Rap God. He rap really fast. And it was so cool :3 So, here is some of his best songs (in my opinion) : 1. Not Afraid 2. Mockingbird 3. Rap God 4. Lose You...

always always always do the best. so, they can see you shine. shine. shine.

one thing i hate about my self is that i always leave people behind me. i made them happy, and i left them. it's like im going into someone's life, but i don't give my responsibility to take care of them. i care too much about something i shouldn't. and make people who love and care to me........ hate me. i can't pretend. i can make them happy, but it will hurt me. im too selfish. i want to be happy. just me. but i hurt people. but then someone hurt me. im mad. i should stop hurt people, if i don't wanna be hurt. but i don't want to make them happy, im afraid if i go too much. and they ask me too much too. but i can't give. so. I don't want to hurt people. I don't want to make them happy. s o , i t h i n k , t h e b e s t t h i n g i c a n d o ......................is disappear  without telling them.  

'Now Is Good' is really beautiful. i love it very much. i learn that sometimes, it is not always for the long time. we still can do it, even for just 1 minute. one day, i'll feel something like that. being very happy with someone. just need to wait for the right time, with the right person. the right moment.

Being short is really annoying, but it's fun too. Sometimes it's awkward to take picture with you taller friends.. And it's really hard when u're cooking. Well, you need to cook and climbing at the same time. lol another problem in the car....... in the store.......... . but, when i can't find anybody, i will do this....... and sometimes, we feel ugly. we hate our body.  in the crowded place, we feel like in the middle of nowhere. some people mock us :( BUT....................... We still have something!! At least it's not hard to find a taller guy :D And it looks cute when we hang out with our tall guy. Go check Cher Lloyd, Avril Lavigne! aren't they look cute?? :D and, at least we can give you cute hugs. lol and, we'll never ever had this awkward moment... ok, that's all... the story of short girl, and don't forget:

One of many great songs by a beautiful Ingrid Michaelson :) I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok I just want to be ok today I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok I just want to be ok today I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today I just want to feel something today I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today I just want to feel something today Open me up and you will see I'm a gallery of broken hearts I'm beyond repair, let me be And give me back my broken parts I just want to know today, know today, know today I just want to know something today I just want to know today, know today, know today Know that maybe I will be ok Open me up and you will see I'm a gallery of broken hearts I'm beyond repair, let me be And give me back my broken parts Just give me back my pieces Just give them back to me please Just give me back my pieces And let me hold my broken parts I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok I just want to be ok today I just want...