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2025, i hate it.!

Sooo. here i am. in 2025. i made it to live to 2025. 

Im okay, but Im not happy. Im sad. and clueless.

Im thinking about flying away. from all this mess. 

Im honestly tired, but I have to live with it right?

Im trying my best. to make it not obvious, trying my best to look okay.

But at the end of the day, when its just me in my room. I begin to cry.

Life is unfair, indeed. I need to remind myself that life is just temporary.

But why its so hard?

If i could go back to 2 years back, maybe... i will be ok?

I will tell my self to make the right decisions.

but what can i do now? nothing

shit happened. can't go back. its too late.

im trapped. i dont know what to do. 

will i be sad for the rest of my life?

i hope not.


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